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gosh i hate the freaking weather right now.. its been raining for the past 2 day i think coz i cant be bothered to count.. too bad for those sec sch ppl who juz ended the whole year of school and now have to content to the ever unpredictable weather.. so if ur going out, pls check the weather forecast before the lightning strike u.. lol

juz watched and review the resistance dvd by muse and its superbly great.. i like muse's music so much.. they are like wat i feel really modern rock wif all the effects and distortion.. and yah they are one bunch of skillful musicians.. juz look at the bassist, who the heck or how the heck he created the bass line for hysteria!? absolutely superb... so i was watching how they make their music and fusing classical and modern experimental rock was divine.. and ive listen to all muse albums and they seems not to disappoint their fan.. and was planing wif hailmi and amin to play mk ultra from their new album.. gonna be a blast!! so thts all i guessx)

stupidthingtodowenboredomstrucks!

mat trojen sesat!!

lol so today i skipped school again.. so it total up to 1 whole wee wif no school.. haizz boy oh boy!! i know i dun have a valid reason to skip but heck care.. nxt week ill start ok!? haha..x)

so today after prayer, since hailmi left me and amin alone.. and we dunno wat to do so we go hougang mall play arcade.. lol i think its stupid coz we played this guitar game and we tried to play through the fire and flames by dragon force but cnnt find so we play some stupid visual kei song.. haha susah pe!? lol den after tht since we haven eat yet,me and amin went to ljs to have lunch and den met hailmi to proceed to hougang point coz got band meeting.. wak tukang besi, as usual, freakin late..

so yah we reached early and den went to fairprice and thts wher i got this stupid pic snap.. they having this Halloween promotion and they selling masked.. try ah one by one.. den since syaza juz reached, we proceed to mc to wait for wak besi to come.. yah so today we talked bout wat songs to play and nxt jamming session and this is the time to voice out any unhappiness and swear, theres alot but we accept wif open heart.. i had my share too but haizz been expecting it.. so nxt jamming session playing,unbreakable by fireflight, you belong wif me by taylor swift, since u been gone by a day to remember, about a girl by the academy is... and lastly devotion and desire by bayside all by 13 nov!and thks syaza for the treat.. haizz!! ok wen she go off, tot of lepak but ppl got curfew so haizz juz go home lah.. cpat sia... ok thts all!

catastrophic disaster wif epic proportion!

the title juz show the whole story.. im not going back against my words and im not gonna comment on the o lvl maths paaper which i did but if ur smart enough, u can figure it out laah..

hmm wanna blog abt my life, i forget wat i did for the past week.. all i know is tht i have not been going to school like a good school boy and ok let me tok bout my trip to the gym last thursday since some fieee ask me to.. hmm

school gym sucks lah seriously.. it was like entering 90s ym wif crap equiptment but if u wanna work out, u have to make do wif wateva u have but for me i rather pay for a proper gym.. so yah went wif ryhan sapau and sharul and fai.. skip class bcoz of gym!! haha lols so since theres no machine which targets the mid-area body so i plan to do my arms and yah i regret it like seriously.. did lots of arm wwork out and yah at first it felt good all the "telur"coming out but wen u give it time to rest then its shit.. seriously.. my left arm cant be straightened out for 3 days and yah imagine how it disrupt my daily activity.. i can even play the bass properly for goodness sake.. haizz so yah did some running and i dun wan to comment on anything but i feel so exhausted after tht.. friday jam!!! wooot baek ah sia... we actually finished our first single but i think the lyrics needed to be cahnged and yah atleast we did some music and it feels goood!! haha and our picss are at facebook.. the jamming studio guy asked us to post a pic for them and put it up facebook. haha so yahs thts it i guess.. tckr ppl!

im panicking!! seriously!!

omg today im gonna take my o lvl math again at serangoon sec.. bbut to be honest, im not even ready, im still blur and dunno wat to expect.. studying is juz a small way to relieve the stress but i still have lots of other things to think about.. i seriously jammed up there!! help me in my desperate need!! best wishes and goodlucks makes the congestion better but come to think of it, its juz a motivation.. haizz how now!!

lets consider my future if i fail;
if i fail again, i will be guilty seriously.. coz theres alot of ppl wanting to see me pass and move on but yah i simply disappoint them.. but atleast, i have a back up plan.. i still have ite to fall back and frm there i need to buck up and make my way up and leave.. and now seriously thinking of joining nafa or lasalle.. but i dunno wat to join and the cost.. omg!! so the conclusion, i have ite to fall back and if i really wanna go, i can go to nafa or lasalle but the cost i need to work out the cost!!

i PASSED!!!
lol if i pass it will be the best lah!! ok den ill quit ite or maybe considering staying on till the end of nitec and den proceed to poly coz yah im gonna miss my ite frens and wat the harm of having a nitec and a diploma, getting higher chance of a job.. haha and maybe if i did well in ite maybe ill consider 2 poly courses!! see luhh lifes grt but thats if i pass ah!! lol

im not ready and im not confident!! serious but this is it!! no more turning back, no more regretting, its juz 2 day and i have a time to consider!! haizz good luck to me! good luck to my future!!

wowo'wow haizz!!

haizz its been freaking long since i updated this page.. been quite bz lately.. pluss oso i think i find enlightenment frm a source i dun expect.. so one whole week of activities so lets get down wif it!

last monday; SCHOOL!! cb first daay of school.. dunno wat to expect.. so there wif hailmi and reach there quite late coz all my classmates got their timetable and i need to find the class monitor. so yah may has changed since we left a month ago.. some change for the better, some change for the worst but wat u expect, ppl change and im happy for tht for those who cahnges to be better.. for the worst, all i can say is u have chosen a path with an escape route, still got chance.. haha cb school ends at 11 den go home! haizz come at 9+ den go home at 1030?! haha nvm atleast can sleep and frm now on must wear thiss stupid lanyard thingy.. shitezz!

tuesday; skipped school to go out cycling wif secondary school frens.. the organiser paitao sia last min! haha so yah only left the 6 of us. ajeet, ashaf, dicky, syue, irah and me! haha so we met up at mcD den went off cycling frm 1130 till 2++ i think coz of certain reasons i dun wanna say lah.. i feel perfectly fine lah wif everything coz i dun care bt if wif ppl who are not sporting enough, haizz u juz dun feel right and it clearly bring the mood down.. juz saying! so after cycling went to mc to tok crap, haha aparently ajeet would pick up his date wif a bus! haha den tok kokking, we decided to go swimming. but only the big three coz dicky is aparently too unsporting.. haizz but i followed ash to pick his sis and den wen to his house to swim.. at last acctually its the one time the big three is theere and only there.. so talked and talked and yah lots of ssecret came up but haizz.. den followed ash to buy nasi goreng haha and tok bout team strategy den go home.. haha!

wednesday; skipped school again.. coz aparently i juz cant be bothered! serious speaking! so went to play soccer wif the eastlanders.. haha at last got the full team minus marcus who was i think sleeping happily! lbfon!!so yah we played against tiny secc school ppl and den a whole gang came like wanna strt a fight haha! but in the end we killed them all.. 2-0 and 2-1! haha ok after soccer decided to go swimming.. and have lunch at ash hse.. haha so eat den go swim.. finally marcus came! training dun wan come swiming den come! nbcb! haha so we swim.. played games and got a few cramps on the way.. haizz it really hurts!! haizz den went up slacked a while den wen home at 9!

thursday; skipped school coz today is jamming day! yeah! so me and hailmi met amin under his blok den met his baby.. haha so den make way to brass basah coz amin and sabon going to buy guitar.. an ibanez. yah met an old fren there and i lost my phone at swee lee!! i tot so but lucky not! in the end after all these shit, they have to go down to aljunied to get their guitars.. wth! so since me and hailmi haven eat, we went for lunch.. den went jamming... yeah so this time got spectator, 2 representative from Fatal Attraction, joe and moe and also Danielle from tp!? haha lol amin baby lah! so 14 songs, here we go.. and syaza is late again! again! haizz ok den wen she comes, yeah we played.. ok lah the jam session, took backing vocals.. sing starlight! yeah! ok lah i dun rate it high lah.. hmm but were quite new so yah.. and den after jam, wen to mc again!! why mc sia!! cb its been like my 7 days straight eating mc!! cb!haha so yah kecoh kat mc! become abit siao.. den took bus back home!

friday; after prayer went to walk arnd den go home and sleep haha!! coz i cant be bothered!

saturday; went to hg inter to meet sabon coz his fren wanna lent my bass for 50 bucks! yeah!! haha since im dying myself so ya lucky!! so accompany him to downtown to give his fren his bass and den walked arnd to find amin's slip on.. walked from ehub to whitesands den back to hg mall to eat at ljs den wen home!

sunday; had tuition.. and yah its been a very hard tok wif abg abu.. serious lah, we talked for wats my dreams and aspiration.. hmm i dun wan to make the same mistake again..i think i juz got my wake up call and have my enlightenment!! i have a week more and im gonna make a full use of it! den wen to cut my hair wif amin den went to heartlands den home!

wowow!! one week left sia!! i dun wan to make the same mistake sia!! serious i wan to get out of the slump and out of there!! pls god help me!! pic for the following event are at my fb coz too much too upload!bb!

SCHOOLO'SCHOOL CHEEBYE!!

the title clearly shows wat i felt for school now, a big cheebye!! haizz coz im too used to waking up freaking late juz becoz there is no school today and im planning to go out every single time haha! start from the 12, i need to wake up preety early to go to school.. haizz, A BIG HAIZZ!! haha and i dunno wat to expect on tht day. its gonna be a new timetable, new subject, maybe a new cher.. but im sure not gonna come in wif the same attitude, displayed during the first time im there.. im a complete slacker and i know tht without ppl evn telling me..

juz nw had tuition and all i have to say is my one way out is only 16 day ahead and i seriously need to open my book and start revising.. haizz ok i admit, i have not been revising since b4 raye and yah and i think cobwebs and rust building up inside.. haizz need to get the motor moving now and try to salvage any hopes of getting out! haizz haizz! not gonna be like last yr wher ppl gave me hope and i crushed them into smithereens!! hmm and seriously im not gonna waste my own money again.. haizz

so reality check, lifestyle and attitude needed to be change in order to pass this hurdle ahead smoothly. hopes need not to be crushed and taking the express train out to a betta future ahead.. thts it!

2 DAYS HARI RAYA VISITING!

IM LOST, AND I DUNNO WHY!!


FRIDAY; went out wif the band for hari raya visiting. we dun have a plan or anything, juz bet on luck.. so yeah meet the boys at the mosque den since hailmi kancil didnt wear his baju kurong, went to his house, wait for him to change and i took my samping too.. haha so den wen to kovan to pick up syaza and her frens, a guy and 2 ladies den went off to amins house. first house was the waited one coz all of us were i think hungry, especially wak sabby. den after tht went to afiq's house which in the same floor but diff wings. took some photos and at last, giv it up for KIDFREAK!! who got lost for 45 mins but persevere to still come and join us! kuddos! den went to my empty, messy to e max house.. mom prepared so food and im tasked to giv out the hari raya money.. initially wanted them to salam me but haizz. den to hailmi's house but wak sabby has to go off to jln raye wif his family. ANK MAK LAH KAN! haha so at hailmi's house, since syaza and some of her frens are scared of cats, they were abit hesitant but okay-ed themselves.. i played the bass and the rest watch dvd to wait for sab call.. syaza best, scared of cats but wanted to touch. den wen the cat run towards her, she screamed like nobody business.. haha klakar sei but miss taking pics. den nxt to sab house, eat again but i think luckily coz im starving. by the time, hakim, amin's bro followed and since syaza bf is on the way to her house, we went off and reached sengkang juz in time. at syaza's house, watch this movie called hysteria which scared the shit out of me and the rest.. haha and now i know ammar is syaza cousin.. haha tht ammar guy! went home freaking late! haizz but i have fun! there are more pic but i juz collage pic which i think is important. i went pic frenzy, snapping every single stuff! the complete album is at my facebook!

SATURDAY; went to hailmi's frens, shasha house coz she's having open house and coz we last time wanted to have our band visiting on sat but since someone visiting her cousins at night safari, we went on friday. so went to her house which was i think quite artistic looking layout. so went up and yah since i have not seen her, or even met her, i was abit dead silence, juz a few jokes thks to my dota bro, afiq.. imagine he put his hands on my leg and blur me thinking he wanted to ask me smtg but he did tht juz because he tot it his leg! haha joker! served lunch.. haizz but i dunno, shasha said i looked lost. yep im lost coz i dunno wat they are toking since im not in their batch.. but i oso dunno lah, im lost during tht particular time.. haha i really dunno why! haha not my usual, loud self, i think im abit shy luhh. haha so took abit of pics, still i looked freaking lost and blur like sotts haha! thks shasha for the open house. den after visiting, tot of watching movie but in the end went jammin! yeah so its midlife JONAS jamming session, haizz unprepared as usual.. damm but the important thing is to have fun.. then after jam went to have dinner den home sweet home! thts all!

its all juz a big mix up..

IGNORE my last post.. its juz a mis understanding i have.. as usual im the blur sotts and i think im abit sensitive.. haizehaizz lol... i should have known this is all juz a joke.. haizz but i took it too seriously and get agitated for nth.. myo'my! haha it all ends up to be a big misunderstanding and yes were still friends.. not gonna sacrifice the 4 yrs frenship we forged.. haha

but acctually this has serve me like a wake up call, so-called an awakening.. yes i do admit i have been bz lately wif all the plans i have and oso planning for upcoming events and oso this stupid hari raya thingy.. haizz. i think frm now onwards, i try to be a good fren to all my frens.. yes i know its impossible to please and be there for every single one of them but ill try my best okay! haha its a pain to lose frens but to gain one is euphoria.. wow!

to think back again, i have not been wat im aim to be but i sure belive not everyone achive their dreams and ambitions.. im aint perfect, i am not flawless.. im am who i want to be, captain of my own fate, master of my own soul, i play my own game, i decide my destiny!! this is me.. im am me! but if u cant achive it, atleast do the best to ur abilities and even if failure is looming ahead, atleast theres thiis sense of feelin tht u have done to the best of ur capabilities.. hmm.. thts all! ROCK ON!

I RATHER BE A LONER!

im not gonna tok bout my life or wat i did wif my FRENS through out the days tht i have not been blogging.. this is a special post straight frm my heart which i wan to clarify to avoid further conflicts and confusion.. argh dammit!

to start off,
im a human being, not gonna be perfect.. but im a human being, juz one single individual juggling burdens on my shoulder.. and pls excuse me if im being too rude in this post or being too offensive to certain individual but i try not to. im not forgetting my frens, not even thinking of it. its a sin to me to lose frens in process of life.. i try to contact most of them wen im free but access this situation, first off, my phone juz came back from servicing and all the contacts inside is forever gone. i got to save some but not all is recovered. secondly, i cant possibly be there for my every single fren..so i take this "first come, first serve" motto and no point explaining coz the phrase says it all.. it applies for meetups and stuff and need to think sometime why i cant meetup wif them. im seriously not forgetting my frens.. even though i dont hang out wif them much, i still care and think bout their life, even though i dont show it..im not making up excuses like work and stuff to avoid them but its really the truth, cant be avoided.. and also u must give symphaty on me.. i have burdens to carry upon and i have hurdles to jump over.. like for example my upcoming o levels maths which i really hope i can pass and leave for a better future.. there are alot but i dun wan to be ranting bout my personnel life.. so pls! get the idea of me forgetting my frens out of ur head.. consider my side of the story too.. haizz! but i cant prevent an accusation for me coz its their life, ppl wil still judge u.. but wisely pls!

the truth,

ridhwan(screwfellow)

for now this is wat i can think about.. this post is personally from my heart and i wish this could clarify the confusions.. so long!

im addicted to band shirt.

latest crave for band shirt now, i dunno i bought one and now planning to buy 2 more.. haizz but its my money and its smtg i like to wear so why not!

FRIDAY; i went out wif the band minus syaza coz she's bz.. so we planned to go aljunied swee lee den to bras basah's one.. we went to aljunied wif wak sabbys brother's band and walked all the way inside. heart pain! all the guitars are 4 digits and if there are 3 digits ones, the first digit was not even 1 or 2! cb! so we knw this is not aa good place to buy guitars.. so went to eat first at aljunied den wen to brass basah one.. wak sabby bro's went seperate ways.. reached brass basah and me and amin started jaimmin wif acoustic bass and guitar and kena sound by the shopkeeper! haha lol so in the end wak sabby found his ideal guitar and planning to buy it soon, maybe nxt week! after tht went to davis and peninsula and the shops tht sells guitar.. we really survey for the best! haha! so finally after surveying, shopping!! bought myself a vans old skool shoe, parkway drive band shirt and a fake dickies short! dun even know how to pronounce the name.. the rest except sabril went shopping, hailmi bought a workshirt and 2 band shirt, amin bought 4 band shirt and bermudas.. haha but atlast we accompany wak sabby to buy his shades at bugis street.. ok den tok bus home but since i 4get bring house keys , i tag along wif hailmi to his uncles house.. 2 ppl trying to figure out how to print but in the end we find out can download the whole file.. haizz so took cab back home.. have fun going out wif the band, nxt time i hope its the full lineup!

SATURDAY; in the morning i sleep! woke up to help hailmi throw his super heavy glass table and had fun coz the glass is round and instead of carrying it we rolled it! haha den wen to achaboys open house wif ajeet, dicky , adi and nadia.. ate nasi bryani.. haha nice but ok lah. den slacked awhile and i need to make a move to indra's open house so reached ther, ate abit, played wif firecrackers den back home.. pics!!

hailmi and indra feat afiq

time for a change..

ok i nt gonna type my usual, haizehaizehaizz thingy or wat and im thinking of converting this blog for spurting my feelings.. wat shall i do? time will only tell

its the new month, month of october and another 22 days im retaking my o lvls maths and i seriously think im really unprepared.. and i dun wanna waste my 150 bucks for nothing and my wish this month is to juz pass my maths, go to poly and start all ovr again.. it will be kinda sad to leave ite wif all the mates tht i have made through out my journey but life has to go on and there are bigger, better opportunities for me, ill sure to be taking it up.. but first i need to clear this hurdle to even think abt life in poly.. i wish to but reality is my biggest wall.. wish me the best of luck okay..

okay for wednesday, i didnt wish to explain abt the first half and 3 hrs of the day.. not interested to share.. did some shopping, bought my slipper, finally a new slipper which my mom has promised since my birthday.. not forcing her as i know wats she enduring right now and ill try my best to help in every single way.. since im went wif sab, we went to aljunied to to the sweelee to survey guitar and guys, theres and ibanez guitar selling at $300 at both sweelee. i knew it coz we eventually went to both.. and i bought my chromatic tuner for $40.. i can say money wotrh spending for smtg like this and i uberly daam satisfied wif this tuner! haha so walked arnd den wen home! thts all folks! x)

tired, bz!!

see luhh, the consequences of not updating is killing me.. why-o why!! haha i try to remember to the best of my memories..

HAIZEHAIZEHAIZZ!!

friday; went to the cage!! but first sent my stups up fone for repair at semei.. haha went wif ajeet.. so after repair went to meet the rest at kallang den we proceed to the venue.. the plae, freakin awesome.. theres a changing room upstairs, complete wif showers and oso all the stuff we need, so called like a mini chalet.. the pitch was great but i juz dun feel right plaing there.. so i decide not to play coz i really have no mood so went arnd taking photos! haha so this was my best shot after tht went to parkway, took more pics wif ajeet cam had dinner and went home!

ashraf the model!

saturday; im so tired from yesterday, so i declined lots and lots of offer to go out.. haha mom not feeling well so.. haha! who cares.. so sit aand home and watched tv till i rot! haha but i think im saving up my energy for sunday coz its my family big outing!!!

sunday; woke up really early, mom not following us for the family visiting so me and matrep bro took cab all the way to my aunt's house.. reached there quite early so we meet up first wif cousin solehin. so slacked under void deck till they called us up.. preety much enjoy coz yesterday its matrep bro birthday so we decided to give him birthday bash, 15 times each person and my another cousin anuar birthday soon, we include him!! haha so total went to more den 5 houses wif my uncle's bus!! haha so in the bus ing song tok rubbish and oso sleep!! haha jln raye pon nk tido pe?! haha ate till i drop haha!! went home ard 10 pluss!! used to be 1 pluss but sonce tmrw some of my cousin schooling, except for me and solehin coz were not in sec sch so they decided to go home!!

monday; im too tired to even move from the bed.. haha so slack at bed till like afternoon! haha so trying to find stuff to do but haizz, all rubbish! haha so monday is officially slacked day!!

tuesday;my sec sch frens coming to my house.. invited them.. and my mom cooking! spagetti to be exact! haha ashraf, being smart haha led them to my house juz to wait below my block and they are supose to meet me at the bustop but they went down 1 stop earlier so im waiting so long to find out they have already alighted the bus! ok so went up wif themm watched naruto wif them! haha and wen the food come, everyone ate it wif no complains.. haha so after house visit, we went to semei to collect my phone.. den proceed to ecp, to chillax wif ajeet, ash, marc and dicky but dicky went home, wth! haha so ate at bk.. very sad experience!! haizz my burger!! haha so after tht, me, adi and ash went to nadia's house, ajeet and marc went home coz aparently, ajeet is so daam freking tired!! haha so went to nadia house, ate the kuehs, pressure her to take out her delicious kuehs!! and watch movie! den walked all the way to ash house den i took bus back home

THATS ALL

WHY OH WHY!